April 2011
2 posts
“I’m not scared of being on my own, I’m just scared of never telling the right person how I feel about them and regretting it forever, you know, cause I feel really, like a disappointment for not making our relationship work and I don’t wanna regret it when I’m 40. I don’t wanna be married and wished I was married to him. I don’t want to forever look for...
Sometimes when you’re young, you think nothing can hurt you. It’s like being invincible. Your whole life is ahead of you. But as you get older, you realize it’s not always that easy. It’s not until the end of your life that you realize how the plans you made were simply plans. At the end, when you’re looking back instead of forward, you want to believe that you made...
March 2011
2 posts
Like any kind of relationship, if it ended ugly, you don’t wanna hear about the other person’s whereabouts. The same applies for me, therefore, no, it’s not nice to hear that you saw so&so at the mall or for some reason so&so mentioned it’s been however long since we last talked. I don’t give a shit. I don’t know if people have noticed but I’ve...
January 2011
2 posts
for you and your denial.
For the longest time, I’ve only wanted to be one thing. Which was why I finally decided to go to school for it. Now that the program is almost coming to an end and I got an internship for something that I thought I actually wanted to do this whole time, I don’t know - I’m just content. I should be super stoked, right… because normally I would be. I thought I knew that for a...
hello/goodbye.
What can I say, in 2010, I was all over the place; I chose to be unemployed for the first five months and realized how boring it was. Then I went back to working and met some funny and amazing people. I reconciled with a friend whom I haven’t talked to in a year and it feels so damn good. I kept back in touch with my partner-in-crime again and spent the last eight (plus) months with...
November 2010
1 post
“One of the saddest part of life is keeping yourself busy and pushing yourself to the limit all day…
And when you get home, lying in bed, you’ll discover that after all what you’ve done to forget, you’re still in that very same position you’re trying to escape.”
October 2010
1 post
the masterplan.
I’ve never stressed over school, at least, not that I’m aware of. I think I’d probably go “oh shit, this thing’s due” or something like that but after today, oh dear, I don’t have room to screw up. I was told that I’m on the right track and I’m doing well etc. but I still feel like I can’t. fuck. up. and I’m definitely feeling the...
September 2010
1 post
Okay, let's start over...
Thank you for those who have been there for me for the last twenty months, more importantly, the last couple of days. I know it wasn’t favorable at all but I think that what’s recently happened might have been what I needed (…and I know how stupid that sounded, but it was long delayed, trust me).
After an incredibly long time, I can finally breathe; waking up in the morning...